No okay, I literally…okay. I decided to tell my family that I’ve been starving myself, and that’s why I’ve been sick. That every time I take food to my room to eat, I just throw it away or eat two bites. That I’ve been wanting to get down to my goal weight of 90 pounds but I’m eating too much. And they told me, “You don’t look anorexic….” basically, stop pretending.
My mom also thought that the “Anna-rexia” costume was HILARIOUS and when I told her, “Do you even have any idea that your own fucking daughter has anorexic tendencies?” and she told me ,”You’re not anorexic you’re not that skinny.”
I get SO angry when people say things like “oh you’re not skinny enough” because they seem to think that anorexia is just where you look really skinny. My mom is anorexic, and has been for 30+ years, so when I developed anorexia, she was there for me. But I can’t say this for other people, parents and children alike are pretty uneducated when it comes to eating disorders. I did a presentation on EDs at school and I was appalled at how many people said “oh but blah blah blah looks anorexic” when that person just has a fast metabolism, and can really eat tons of food and not gain weight.
Sorry for the rant, this just makes me so goddamn angry at the society we live in.